I mean, come on. I was so rudely awoken four times from the time I went to bed until the time I decided to get up this morning by my almost 3 month old. Scott should have seen my meltdown this morning coming from a mile away. But, it took me slamming a few cupboards and having short answers to all his questions to make my point. I'm so beyond tired there needs to be a new word for it. Something needs to give.
I then decided I would turn this day around and we would take the family to the Hands on Museum so we could spend some quality time together. I'm not sure why I didn't take into account how tired I was before I toted around a wee one in the baby bjorn for a few hours and tried to get him to nap when it seemed like every toy or exhibit there made some sort of noise. And in case it wasn't difficult enough, we were bombarded by an unattended preschooler who decided to bully Sean and take away every truck or car that Sean played with for close to 15 minutes. I was surprised that Sean made it 15 minutes of that torture before he bit the kid. At least the parent wasn't around for us to have to make amends with.
Finally, we thought it would be a nice evening to invite Scott's sister and her kids over to play in the backyard with a bonfire since it was so mild. I would have loved to enjoy it as well, but Evan decided to have a poopsplosion out of his diaper, down his leg, and onto the carpet in our living room and he capped it off with crying for the rest of the evening. I'm sure by my tone you can guess who had to deal with that.
But, as my sister-in-law and nieces went home and Scott put Sean to bed, I was able to put my feet up, nurse Evan to sleep, and catch up on Parenthood. And within the time it took to watch that emotional show, I had some pre-Thanksgiving perspective slap me right across the face. Everything we are going through right now with our growing and changing family is "just a phase", as my mom would say. It feels like it's never ending when you're living it every day, but I know 5 years from now we'll look back and think that my sleepless nights and Sean biting were nothing in the grand scheme of things. I've been complaining a lot lately about how tired I am, how much I hate not being able to eat what I want, how I wish Evan would sleep, etc. etc. Tonight, I just want to take a deep breath and reboot. So, with Thanksgiving tomorrow, here's what I'm thankful for about the people I've been complaining most about:
I am thankful for Scott. He may be so lucky to get to sleep through each night since Evan was born thanks to me breastfeeding, but he's an amazing Dad to our boys and continues to amaze me every day with how cute it is to watch Sean and Scott play together. More importantly, even though Scott isn't always the most romantic guy out there nor does he always know the right things to say when I need to hear them, but he can always make me laugh. Like when out of nowhere we thought it would be fun to have a banana throwing fight in the garage today when we got home from the museum. Hiding behind car doors and all.
I am thankful for Sean. Sometimes I tend to dwell on things he does that frustrate me, often times forgetting that he is only 2 years old. But all that aside, he truly is such a smart, caring, loving, energetic, and funny little guy. He is such a chatterbox and I love listening to him because every day he shocks me with new sentences and funny expressions. He just seems to be absorbing everything around him and is so fascinated with life. Oh my gosh, words can not express how much joy he brings to our lives and how much I love him for exactly who he is, biter and all.
I am thankful for Evan. I truly believe it when they say that no two babies are alike. He is so different from Sean, and though sometimes that can be challenging like keeping me up all night and causing me to have to eliminate dairy in my diet, I love learning who he is as a person. He is so snuggly and loving with a passionate personality that knows exactly what he wants and doesn't want. He is observant and serious, but has a smile that melts my heart. I look forward to each month over the next year watching him grow and learn. I love him so much already and wouldn't make the sacrifices I have if it weren't for how much he means to me and how much I want to do for him.
After this lengthy rant, in conclusion, it's amazing what a little time to myself spent relaxing and watching a great show can do. I guess at the end of the day, despite some of the setbacks we had today, I had a wonderfully exhausting day with my family. It's all about the right perspective on things...
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